Melisa Singh Has a Baby

My son Zachary is three weeks old today. The crazy thing is that I’ve pretty much kept it under wraps until now. My pregnancy was high-risk and quite taxing on me. I didn’t have the strength to fake that I was taking it like a champ or tell everyone I was great when I wasn’t. I was struggling. I didn’t want the five-second social-media messages from quasi-friends making it seem like I had a village when in actuality I felt very alone. This despite a couple people reaching out the old-fashioned way to check in with me and empathize with my struggles as I navigated pregnancy and parenthood far away from my closest family & friends.

Zachary had to be born at 38 weeks due to complications. He was born 5lb 6oz with a tiny stomach and, as we found out later, a tongue-tie and lip-tie. This little guy is still weighing in well under 6 pounds despite feeding him around the clock. He has difficulty eating and puts out so much energy trying to suck that he is always exhausted, not to mention uncomfortable with the gas he takes in eating. It’s so heartbreaking to see your child hungry and unable to eat. It’s gotten better. When he’s old/big/strong enough for surgery we are told it is going to get significantly better. In the meanwhile, I’m finally starting to recover from extreme pain from a nerve that was severed during my c-section. I’m just recently able to get up from a chair or sit in front of a healthcare provider without bursting into tears.

I wasn’t intending on going back on social media for a long time. Then today I got back the digital photos of my little one and I love them so much I just had to share them publicly. I figure close to no one reads this blog so it seemed a good forum to vent at the same time. I’ll try to keep my Facebook and Instagram posts more bubbly. Should I drop off again, just know I’m still trekking – doing my best as a concerned mommy madly in love with her little boy.

-Melisa Singh